Love Suddenly

I was going to audition, but I called later than I meant to, and all the spots but one had been filled. Because I’m working a show at the same time, that one spot did me no good. Oh well. At least I have the headshots. It’s a start, and I can go from there.

I’m going to audition for Into the Woods (it’s a musical) next Saturday. I will actually be vastly surprised if they give me a second thought (honestly, I have no experience, and I will have had five days to practice my music of choice. Which I haven’t chosen yet), but I’ve decided to go for it anyway. Fortunately, I have some excellent resources at my disposal, and my dear friend was kind enough to take pictures for me to use as a headshot. I was going to post the one I picked here, but he beat me to it. Go there and check out my sexy.

So, while I’m kinda WoWed out right now, they’ve just released a bunch of new info on the Wrath of the Lich King expansion, and it looks totally awesome. I am so rolling Death Knight.

I know a few of you who read this blog are also fans of Avatar: The Last Airbender. I’m sure you all have been agonizing over the lack of updates. I was starting to think they’d just up and canceled the show. But I was WRONG! Avatar Chapters has two new episodes! YAY!!!!!111one one

If you haven’t watched the show before, I highly recommend checking it out. A few of the episode links are broken, but anyone with minor search engine skills can find the missing ones. I’m just happy they’re updating again! *does a little jig*

I’m still here, I’ve just had a lot going on, and not a lot of motivation to write here lately. I know I should, cause I know several friends who keep up with my life based on what I write here. By way of updates, I haven’t run since the last time I wrote, cause I’ve either been tired, or the weather’s been crappy. I’m running follow-spot for a show at the Grand Theatre; we’re doing Big River. I’ve got an interview today, so wish me luck.

Ran about 5/8ths of a mile today. Felt good going through the long side. Heading into the curve to the short side, and nice older man said I was looking good, and wished me a good day. I love friendly people. Almost through the short side I had to listen to my body, and stop. My shoes are old and not really built for running, and my left leg was getting a twinge up around the knee. Breathing felt great though. Not running out of breath, and being able to feel my LEGS work instead of my lungs is awesome.

The weather was that damp sort of cool that I love. It wasn’t cold, and there was no breeze to make it feel cold. Until I headed for home, it wasn’t raining either. It was just very pleasant. Several groups of kids at the park from some place in Jordan district. I can’t wait to have kids. Well… yes I can, but I’m looking forward to it.

As of yesterday, my running record was a half mile. I’d done it twice, and each time left me breathless and floppy.

Today I figured I’d push it. I hadn’t run in two days, so my body was pretty rested. So as I started, taking a nice easy pace, I decided I’d shoot for three quarters. Breathing was great, form felt pretty good most of the time. It was easy enough I could watch the world go by as I was running. Coming around the corner to the half mile I had to pass a family. I always feel awkward passing people. My easy pace sets me going just barely faster than somefast walkers out there. I feel like I ought to speed up and breeze by them, but that takes all the wind out of me. So I was a little discouraged going into that third quarter, but I was determined.

Passed an older guy jogging just as I cleared the marker, and I still felt great so I figured why not, and I decided to push for a mile. By this time, I’m really in a good spot. I had to focus on relaxing my legs, but my breathing was great. I was breathing hard, but it was steady, and still loose enough I could breathe in through my nose every so often. When I get really winded, I can only breathe through my mouth.

I did it. I cleared a mile. For the first time possibly ever, I ran one solid mile without stopping to walk at all. I have no idea how long it took. I was going real slow. Channeling Zippy the Wonder Snail, totally.

It gets better. At a mile, I still felt great. Wasn’t running out of breath, and I finally felt like my legs were actually getting a workout. So I kept going. For those who don’t know, the concrete ring around the park is just under a mile and a half. You have to go about fifty feet past wherever you started to get that mile and a half in.

And today, I ran a mile and a half. Two days ago my record was a half mile. Today, I doubled that record! When I slowed to a walk (not much slower believe me) it was the strangest feeling. My breathing was tight, and I needed water, but my legs felt like they were lifting themselves. It was similar to the feeling I get when I’ve been walking on a treadmill for a while. Sort of floaty. I was a little lightheaded, so I took it nice and easy coming home. Tossing in the walk to and from the park, I did just over three miles total, and half of that was my run. I know I’ll have to take it easy tomorrow, probably just walk. But I did it.

Ki, I finally understand. It’s euphoric. Thanks for getting me started.

Too many thoughts, not enough time. “I splain. No, no, is too much, I sum up.” I have the greatest family of friends the world has ever known. I have never had flowers mean more to me than the handful I was given all wrapped up in a bow tonight. The hugs, the sympathy, the unequivocal reinforcement of my worth to myself and to them was exactly what I needed. I love you all, more than you’ll ever know.

You can’t ever go back. You can only go forward. Focusing on what you had, what you lost, how things were only does you a disservice. Just as being caught up in the future leads to missing the present, being stuck in the past denies present and future.

In case any of you are worried about me (understandable based upon my last post, and a few personal conversations), I want to let you all know I’m doing much better. I have a problem with keeping things in perspective. I want the world to work my way and I pout when it doesn’t happen.

I am grateful to my friends who are willing to take the time out of their lives to listen, sympathize, advise, and otherwise just be there for me. You know who you are.